NuMePsalm140's 2001 Dodge Viper RT/10

I dont really know how to start because i dont know exactly when it was that I turned way from GOD. (the car i descriobed is my Dream car I love it) .
Well, this is i turned away from Him, in a September, that was when I really really turned away. I began chillin with gangs and doing what they did just to forget that I felt like the odd ball in my family. I turned to Weed, and Alcohol, Hookies. Still going two church, I wouldn't feel like being in church. While seperated from God I wanted to do everyting the world offerred. I drank every liquor and beer. I smoked cigs and weed more occassionally. My life was miserble sstill. I didnt feel good still. Major problems began rise in in my house with my Parents. After a few months of attending Hookes police would come to the parties too luckily i wouldnt get caught. In the last party i went too i experiencee so much that in a way it still today depresses me nd makes me feel horrible. I felt my dignity go down. For a month i was depressed and felt so low and mainly embarrssed my parents made me feel dirty nd sinful . My past is so shameful i hate it and i cant believe I let my problems take over my mind and lead me to the wrong path away from GOD>
Well after that long month of depression and paranoia, I decided to turn back to GOD but I was scared that He wouldnt accept me. I felt guilty because I had read in the Bible that if knowing the truth you dont do it you are in sin, and this would play in my head while i was doing those things so many times but i would try to turn away from the voice, Always keepin in mind JOB and his sons and Daughters partying while he was praying for them.. Well once ,before the last party i went to, my pastor was preaching in a wednesday Prayer service encouraging ppl , and he said "Dont Give up Keep going" I knew GOD was talkin to me but i didnt want to stop doing what i was doing i was lovin it.
After my decision of reconciling with GOD, My youth pastor's preaching would talk to my life and i would feel good and feel accepted from GOD. I Know that GOD is always talking to me in everyway and everwyhere i go.
I decided to turn to GOD again but I didnt know how, because i was ashamed of my past. I still am but I try harder to please Him but I ALWAYS fail, thts why i read the Psalm in my user name
PSALM 140:
"Deliver me, O'Lord fro the evil man:perserve me from the violent man....."
I know i was redeemed from my sinful life but i find myself turning bak to the world So please Brothers and Sisters even though we dont know each other We are still all a family because we hve One Father and One OLder Brother Jesus CHrist Keep me in your prayers when u'z remember. God Bless Ya'll