VanneMcBee's 2000 Dodge Neon

Testimony

It all happened at birth, God had a plan for me, I don?t know what it was, but God knew. I was born three weeks premature with the umbilical cord wrapped around my neck.

I was baptized in this church when I was a baby. During my childhood days, I didn?t like going to church. I loved to sleep in till one in the afternoon and tried to get everyone else to do the same.

This had gone on all through my teenage years. On November 3, 1997, God was trying to get my attention. I was robbed and assaulted while I was making a pizza delivery. I think on that night I was thanking God a million times. I should have died that night, but God knew I wasn?t ready to go.

A few months later in 1998, God really got my attention. My mom was diagnosed with lung cancer. When mom was in the hospital, Dad and I started to go to church on a regular basis. My mom?s illness is what brought me into the church.

In December of 1999, mom was getting worse and I didn?t want to see her in pain, I was also scared out of my mind. I was dating my boyfriend at the time and after five months I decided to move in to his house. What a big mistake I made. During the time I was with him I had premarital sex, I cursed all the time, and I was introduced to the drink, Southern Comfort.

Mom died in May of 2000 and I got married in July of 2001. The marriage was good in the beginning and then it gradually got worse over time. I would always catch him looking at pornography on the computer and recording Howard Stern shows, I always told him to stop it, but he never did listen to me. It really got worse in the summer of 2003 because Bob was transferred to another store. Our second anniversary was a joke because we didn?t hug or kiss for the past month.

In July of 2003, I was sitting on the toilet asking the Lord if I should move on with my life and get a divorce. I walked down stairs and looked outside the window, I saw two men walking across the road carrying crosses on their backs. I was reminded that God died for our sins and He will forgive me for what I have done. This was the first sign.

I took advantage of this sign, so I went apartment hunting. I had to make sure I had an apartment, which allows pets because I would go crazy if I didn?t have my precious kitty with me. I went and put my application to Chelsea Village, I left it all up to God to see if I would get approved for the apartment. If I did get approved, yes I would be moving out, and no I wouldn?t be moving. The application did get approved so this was my second sign. I was noticing in my Bible, my mom lived in an apartment complex and the apartment number was #33. I asked the tenant about my apartment and she said I would be living in apartment 733. If God was giving me a sign now, boy did He give me one, this was the third sign.

On September 10, 2003 I moved out on Bob. I was sitting on the futon on a Sunday night in the living room and all of a sudden something hit me. God told me I was a Christian, on Sunday September 14, 2003, God had opened my eyes. I was crying, I was praising the Lord, and I felt peace in my soul. I almost called Nancy Dunson to tell what had happened, but this was at midnight and I didn?t want to wake her up. I never knew what a Christian felt like till then, I was always wondering how they felt.

To this day, I am a better person. I don?t curse as much as I used to, but I am still working on that. I am happier about others and myself. This may be a miracle for me; I lost 25 pounds over the six months. God made a temple out of me, so I have to maintain it.

In Psalm 142, this passage relates to what I was going through??I cried unto the Lord with my voice; with my voice onto the Lord did I make my supplication. I poured out of my complaint before him; I showed before him my trouble. When my spirit was overwhelmed within me, then thou knewest my path. In the way wherein I walked have they privily laid a snare for me. I looked on my right hand, and behold but there was no man that would know me: refuge failed me; no man cared for my soul. I cried unto thee, O Lord: I said, Thou art my refuge and my portion in the land of the living. Attend unto my cry; for I am brought very low: deliver me from my persecutors; for they are stronger than I. Bring my soul out of prison that I may praise thy name: the righteous shall compass me about; for thou shall deal bountifully with me.?

What I plan to do with the rest of my life?well I plan to get a dissolution because I feel if I go back to Bob I will go back to the way I was and that was hell within itself. God will love me more than Bob could ever have shown me. In 1 Corinthians 7: 10 & 11 says, ?And unto the married I command, yet not I, but the Lord, Let not the wife depart from her husband: But and if she depart, let her remain unmarried, or be reconciled to her husband put away his wife.? So this means once I get a dissolution I can no longer marry and I would have to be single the rest of my life, which is all right with me.