Vidyostar's 1999 Mitsubishi Eclipes GS

All my life i believed in god, always went to church i used to sing in our church chior i was always in the know with church activities but ever since there was a fallout in our church it's been so hard to find a good solid foundation to worship god. and ever since my gradparents pass away i've been feeling that constant void in my life, and at that time i was 22 yrs old but i'm happy they lived a fruitful and fulfilling life together. Ever since then i did stupid things with friends, or at leased thought were my friends like drink,smoke,and then got in to the street racing scene(Illegal that is)but in any event i drove at that time a 1989 mazda 323 GTX it was a very rare car, it came stock 1.8L AWD turbo with about 180 hp i still remember then people saw me take it to the street races they laughed, but as soon as i started beating people i notice that i made friends and enemys at the same time and out of all the madness i was be-friended by a guy at the street drags his name was mathew after he raced me he was suprise at what my car can do so and at that time he drove a 1990 VW GTi so he kept researching on how he could get his hands on one, but never had no luck so one weekend i let him race my car it felt like a typical night at the races. he was racing 2000 civc SI until the civic swerved to aviod hitting the crowd near the street but hit the rear passenger side bumper causing matt to lose control and hit a metal light pole...I went to the hospital to visit him until his mother called to tell me he died early next morning ever since then i pretty much didn't do much after, it felt like a was living a nightmare wether i'd be dreaming or awake, nowa days i'm just stay away from all that illegal stuff i focus more now on imortant things. i think god has kept me alive this long for a reason, and i don't ever want to experience losing a friend like that again.