cvic-si's 1999 honda civic si

well where do i start guys? all of my life since about age 5 i feel that i have been saved. by saved i mean that i knew God had a calling on my life. at age 11 i was water baptized and age 14 i was filled with the Holy Ghost (with evedence of speaking in other tounges)

from then on i fought with trying to be the COOL guy, never really succeeding all the way, but none the less tried really hard. when i finally realized i was never going to be the coolest, i had already fallen away from my intimate relationship with God that i once had. not changing, i kept the friends i had and kept doing the things i was doing. after high school i got involved with a girl and it got pretty serious, we had sex and from then on continued to have sex with 3 other girls after i had broken up with her. while in college i met my future wife shelley. she came to visit her ex-youth pastor who was then my yourth pastor. the first words out of my mouth to her were, "im going to marry you". haha pretty funny huh! anyway we got married in june of 2000, had our first child (mariah)in 01, moved to ky, had our sencond child (micah) in 03. i am working now as a land developer (dont ever do it unless God tells you to!! ) very stressfull and long hrs. my wife has recently left me saying that i work and stay away from the house to much and that she is unhappy! now before you start thinking "wow why would shelley ever leave a great guy like brett", listen to what a great guy brett is.

1. brett put just about everything in front of his family life.
2. brett pretty much was a liar about really dumb things!!
3. brett did drugs (addicted to loratabs for about 3 months)
4. brett looked at pornography (makes your wife or significant other feel insecure) no matter what they tell you!!

5. brett smokes - i still do this one!! plz pray for me to quit, its killing my witness everytime i smoke!!

after all this i hope that shelley comes back. i dont deserve her back, but i desire her and NEED her in my life!

ill add more later,

brett