papasmurf7498's 2004 Chevrolet Cavalier

Where do I begin? I am a born again christian and have been for 6 years now. I'd like to say that I have never stumbled or fallin but that would be a lie. I thank God every day for my pastor and my church family who have always stood behind me and helped me pick up all the pieces of my life thay have helped guide and shape who I am today. I was called into the ministry 3yrs ago,(or should I say thats when I accepted the call) When I had accepted what god had planned for my life i was a littled startled but had joy none the less. I was amazed that God would choose me to touch others lives. At the same time I didn't realize how much more the devil would come against me. My life has been filled with tragedy, I was in a car accident on June 4th 2004 in which one of my dearest friends Shaun Ball was killed. We were struck by a driver on meth I couldn't and still can't understand why it happened but thats when my world came crashing in around me, and at that point I tried to turn my back on God thankfully he never turned his back on me after about 2 months of refusing to go to church I finally hit bottom I was at a point in which I couldn't have cared less if i died. At that point I realized I didn't like Who I had become. Finally I swallowed my pride and went back to the only place i knew i could get the help i needed and desired, The alter. I layed my face to the ground before God and wept and wept that was all could do I couldn't pray I couldn't do anything but weep. In my mind all I could utter was I'm So Sorry over and over again. then in an instant I felt Peace stronger than I have ever known before and I knew that everything would be OK. I was back In the presence of God I am in his hands and he watches over me. I am fortunate all my friends are saved now thank God! I thank God that Shaun gave his life to the Lord Shortly before the accident that has made things a little easier. Like I said I don't understand why Shaun was taken from this world all I can do Is trust in God and continue on. Sorry for writing so much but I have to write what God places on my heart I hope that This will Bless Someone, anyone for that matter. Thank you and God bless you all.